April 1st-4th

4/1/08- DOWNTOWN
Today we went DOWNTOWN and I mean like to the capitol downtown. It was gorgeous! I forgot how much I enjoy a crowded city. I love Austin. The actual city is so amazing. I kept doing these long, dramatic sighs the whole time, lol. I didn’t realize that I was until Howard pointed it out. I haven’t been to the capitol since I was very young and I forgot how beautiful it is.
I wonder what I’d be like to live in the city and be an actual ‘Austinite’. Hmm, interesting.

4/2/08- Dancing Queen!
Maddie has been doing the ‘bob to music’ thing for months now (If you’re a mom, you know EXACTLY what I’m talking about). We’re very musical in this house, so she’s used to it and loves it! And today, while watching her sister, she learned a couple more dance moves. Click HERE to observe, trust me…click it.

4/3/08-One.Moody.Girl.
Kenzie has been overly sensitive and moody today. She started off the day by crying because she was afraid she wouldn’t be able to say goodbye to Maddie, because she was still sleeping. She was able to though, and that calmed her down.
I’m concerned about her behavior because we have a very busy weekend up ahead and I hope she isn’t too worn out from all the crap we’ve done lately. We’ve been so incredibly busy! When she got home, she was even more moody! Getting very frustrated, almost to the point of tears when doing her homework because frankly she was too tired to concentrate.
I tried to get her to stop, to do it later, but she refused. She wanted to get it done, now. Okie dokie!

4/4/08-Midnight Riders
Man I don’t know what was up with my kids last night! They were both exhausted and went to bed without too much of a fight. At 1:45am they are both awake and crying! I knew there was supposed to be storms during the night, and thought they might have woken them up, but when I looked at the weather, it wasn’t even drizzling! Kenzie had a nightmare, that she told me later was that Howard and I got divorced and I left her and Maddie and moved to another house.
Then before I could say a word she said, I know you would never do that mom, because you’re the best mom in the world, but it scared me. I hugged her and smiled. She knows me well. I explained divorce. I explained the reasoning behind divorce, and that if it ever happened in no way would it be her fault, or anyone’s fault except for Mommy and Daddy. I told her that she will always be loved and we’d still be a family, we just wouldn’t live together. She said she understood and smiled.
Anyway, after that early morning chat, the girls went to bed and Maddie got woken up by some thunder around 5am. I brought her in our room to sleep, which was quite a trip, she slept IN my shirt, no joke. She crawled up my shirt, and had her head poking out the top, She’s weird.
It’s still storming outside and is supposed to until early afternoon. Let’s hope the day goes by a little smoother then it did last night.
Oh and strangely, I’m in a pretty good mood even though I had my sleep disturbed, which does NOT happen often! Lol

SECOND ENTRY: Woah…Linda Blair moment!
Although, I had a weird night, my good mood is continuing and I had a pretty good day today too!
This evening was pretty eventful! My mom has a friend that lived in her complex, and Mackenzie adores her daughter who’s 6. She’s a single mom, living on child support with a very old car. Howard’s trying to help that car stay on the road instead of on the side of it.
So, all evening we had a household of people!
The girls did have a good time playing though. Man, I now know why my mom got so annoyed with me when I had friends over at that age. They’re so dramatic, constantly tattling on eachother and constantly showing off to the adults. It was do adorable, at first. Got old real quick, lol.

The end of March

3/29/08- Concern and Impressed
Today was a really interesting day. This morning went off so smoothly, and I was trying to go somewhere too! Both kids were doing exactly what I wanted them to do! We left the house about 9:30am and went to pick up my parents and go to Alyssa’s {my niece} gymnastic meet.
She did very well, and I was very proud of her. My dad got bored {jerk off}, my sister was overly critical {but never said that to her face, thank goodness} and my mom was…very helpful lol. She helped me a lot with Maddie in the crowded meet.

Excuse the picture quality, we weren’t able to use flash photography, we didn’t want to distract her.

Warming up:

Waiting for her turn on the uneven bars:

My mom’s gasp could be heard from outside lol. It freaked her out a little to see Alyssa going SO FAST and all the way around the bar lol

Dismount from the beam {she did AMAZING on this one btw!}

I took video, but when I tried to open it just now, my entire computer froze. So…yeah.

After that, I took my dad, Kenzie and Maddie back to our house where Howard was sleeping {It was like 2pm but he had worked the night before}. He got up and they watched the girls and my mom and I ran to the store to get a birthday gift for a little boy in Kenzie’s class.
I got home 30 minutes before the party was supposed to start. I said goodbye to Howard, who was going BACK to work, packed up Maddie who was going to stay at my moms while I took Kenzie to this party and went and dropped Maddie and my parents off and then Kenzie and I went to the party.
It was at Inflatable Wonderland, where she had her 6th birthday party. She had a blast. I enjoyed chatting with some of the other moms. Mackenzie is always going on about this little boy in her class, Patrick. He’s a gorgeous kid with dark brown hair that he wears spiked up, fair peach skin and bright blue eyes. He’s almost as tall at Kenzie, which is impressive in her 7 years, 4’7’’ frame! We always thought it was a crush and she just talked about the way he acts towards her {always playing with her, tickling her, ect.} was a little exaggeration. Boy was I WRONG! That kid was all over her! He kept doing these running tackles at her on the inflatables. He’d hold her hand, he kept touching her hair, and even when they weren’t doing things together, he’d come up behind her, rub her back or tickle her and walk away like he did nothing. TOTAL.SHAMLESS.FLIRTATION.
I thought it was cute, but then got concerned, lol. I realized that she’s a tween now and this is going to happen more and more with more potency. I keep telling her boys have cooties and make sure not to kiss them, lol. She says she doesn’t but says she likes Patrick a lot. I can see why.
I am in so much trouble.

3/30/08- A whole lotta nothing
Not that I’m complaining! Lol I miss vegging! We cleaned house, ran to the store {well, not literally} and spent time with the kids.

I really do miss vegging and not having to do anything, lol. Man, I’d much rather be vegging on the net though.

3/31/08- Blast from the Past
Today while we were in Walmart, we weren’t doing anything out of the ordinary. Just shopping and talking, lol. Our voices carry so I know we’re heard easily. Apparently easily enough that roaches things crawled out of the woodwork.
When Howard was looking for some t-shirts a woman on a motorized cart looked like she was trying to get past us and I moved out of the way and apologized. She said it’s ok, Kristin. Double take! Triple take! PATTI?!?!!

Backstory: Patti was my moms best friend since Middle school.{Patti also happens to be my aunt (mom’s sister) sister in law! Trisha, my aunt, is married to Patti’s only brother} The woman named me! They were closer then close, as was I to Patti’s daughters. One my age and the other 6 years older. Then both their marriages fell apart in the late 90’s, and they quit talking because of some hearsay and they thought it’d be better if they stayed apart.
Years happened, changes happened {a lot of them!} and they somehow reunited in 2001 right after Kenzie was born. To cut to the chase…Patti’s boyfriend was in prison, my mom was married to a self admitted womanizer…They betrayed my mom. After that, she forgave Patti and they became friends again. My mom eventually bought Patti’s car from her and didn’t finish paying her off because it died. Completely. Motor, gone. Transmission, gone. Because I had loaned my video camera to Patti’s oldest daughter so they could video tape their newest child coming into the world I never saw the camera again. But in that camera bag was all of Kenzie’s baby home videos. Patti refused to give them back until she was paid for the car. Like it was my fault?! So, long story short, police were involved, I got my tapes back, unharmed.

Now, back to the shock of seeing her again after…4, 5 years? Her face and stomach was bloated big time from medication she’s been taking for years. She’s at least 150 pounds heavier then the last time we saw her. Her health is terrible! Oh and she lives like 30 minutes away.
I wanted to feel sorry for her. I wanted to hug the honorary mom that I had all my childhood. I did feel sorry for her, but I couldn’t hug her. I couldn’t show her pity. I’m a compassionate person and I live on my emotions. I didn’t feel anger or any other negative emotion. I pitied her. I did. But not enough to reach out.

After the brief visit and her updating us on her family, we walked away. It was odd, and the air felt stale, no matter where I went in that store. I realized I had seen her before in the store, I just didn’t recognize her.

Why do people in your past pop up when you least expect them or haven’t thought about them in a very long time?

3.23-3.26

3/23/08- Overcooked egg
**Yet again, another long entry
Happy Easter!
Last night after Howard dropped my parents off at home, he stopped by Walgreens to pick up some candy {Yeah, we totally forgot about this lol}.
After he got home with $25 worth of candy and stuffed animals for the girls we got their baskets together and I passed out on the couch while Howard played video games, lol.
This morning Kenzie tore into the baskets before I could even put my glasses on. I told her to put it all back and wait for Howard to get up. Yeah, he didn’t want to get up. J I made a big breakfast and finally went and woke Howard up so the girls could tear into their baskets. Maddie had a squeal attack at the bunny in the basket accompanied by the stuffed Shamu we got her the night before.

Kenzie got a ton of hair accessories, candy, gum, bunny. Maddie got bunny, 2 outfits including a bathing suit and hair accessories as well! After Howard got up, we got decent and went to Danielle’s moms house for late lunch early dinner type thing. She invited us on Friday and since we didn’t want to do anything here because of our busy weekend it worked out great! The food was AWESOME! OMG! We ate, talked, laughed, watch the kids play. We discussed wedding details {her mom is getting married at the end of May}. Realtime Edit: She eloped 2 weeks ago
Then Howard and Danielle went outside to hide a bagillion plastic eggs.
It was a lot of fun. Beckham would not stop eating the jelly beans inside the eggs and Kenzie wouldn’t stop showing her butt. Literally, half her rear was hanging out of her jeans lol. Lovely. Maddie just kept pointing at the eggs she could see saying, BALL? BALL? BALL! Lol She even picked a few!

Oh, he found the Jelly Beans!

Butt shot!

She loved watching them!

When Howard and Danielle were hiding eggs her mom showed me a carton of confetti eggs. I am so getting Howard! Lol! After the kids did the egg hunt I was holding Maddie on my hip and walked up to Howard and gave him a kiss and a hug and cracked 2 confetti eggs over his head. He laughed, we all laughed. All of us, except Maddie. That child screamed so loud I think people in Lousiana heard her! She didn’t understand why there was a sea of little colored circles going all over her daddy and she didn’t like it! Of course, he got me, and she screamed some more! Kenzie got Danielle and Beckham and Howard got Kenzie and Kathy, Danielle’s mom.

Howard and Kathy:

Danielle:

Me and Miss Maddie:

Easter was pretty damn good.
After we left Kathy’s, we stopped by Sonic, even though our heads were still covered in confetti!  Howard and I leaned in to eachother and had our heads together. Kenzie made this large, dramatic sigh and said, awwwwww cupcakes!! Ha, I love that kid!
Oh, did I mention that I have one wicked ass sunburn in weird places from Sea World?

3/24/08- Oh good God, It’s Monday ALREADY?!
We need more rest! Lol omg, we are all zombies! Lol. Kenzie’s student of the week this week so there was no way I was keeping her out, even for a day, lol. We were late to school this morning though. J
Man that kid, first she gets an awesome birthday party, goes to Sea World, then spends Easter with her favorite toddler and now a whole week devoted to her at school!
I went to store today to get some diapers, ect. Then we went to pick up Kenzie at school, time to go get a pet!
First pet store: Awesome sale! Buy cage {the one we got her doesn’t allow extensions for the tubing, so we’re taking it back} and get a hamster free. No hamsters. The clerk says they have no clue when they are going to get them in because their mating season is off due to the weather. Oh crap.
Next pet store: I don’t see any hamsters here either! Crap! They do have a large parrot named big head that dances when I wave my fingers lol. Finally, we ask and he shows us to 3 cages off to the side that we missed {they were like at knee level} with one, 9 week old white dwarf hamster in it. It’s light gray with a charcoal stripe down the middle and charcoal belly. It immediately gets up on 2 legs and stares at us. *melt* It’s his last one. We pick an awesome cage and buy it immediately without a second thought. He’s furry and cute and fast, omg! Kenzie keeps talking to it like a baby, she is so beyond excited!
We get in the car and ask her what she wants to name it.
“Aaron!” no… “Eric!” no… “I don’t know!” Ok. She gets that from me, lol. After some long discussion, Mr. Hamster running down my shirt and all over me in .3 seconds and Over the Hedge coming home, she decided on Hammie. Hammie the Hamster, lol. He’s adorable and Kenzie ADORES him! Maddie points and him and says, “DOG?” lol

Kenzie did get a little upset when we told her she couldn’t feed Hammie pizza.

3/25/08- Disturbed
My mother told me the most disturbing thing today. When I was a child, I had a ton of pets. At one point I had 2 rabbits, 2 dogs, 1 cat, 1 bird, 40 fish and 2 hamsters.
The discussion came up that pet stores only sell male hamsters now to keep the population down. Understandable.
Then she told me that when I was a kid, I had a male and a female and that they would constantly have babies!! I never knew that.
I asked her what happened to them and I wish I hadn’t. She told me she flushed the babies down the toilet. No joke.
That is so terrible! I’m mad now.

3/26/08- Untangled in the net
I am really starting to miss the internet lol. I miss my moms groups, blogging, and being able to look stuff up. I feel at a loss not being able to google every couple of seconds {which seriously, I do, I live on the damn site}.
I can access very little on my blackberry and I can’t do posts for my moms group and I can do entries for my blog, every time I do, they don’t show up. I can answer myspace messages, don’t know why, but I can, lol.
I google but omg it takes FOREVER!
The cable/internet company has been out here once since we lost service. They said it could be 2-4 weeks. It’s been a week as of today. I’m going nuts!